turning twenty

has never been a more

joyful occasion and this time

i have kept the blues at bay

i have avoided the self-indulgence

of woes and regrets (with a

little help from gin and a lot

from friends)

i have felt blessed, truly

and i have learnt over the past

two years

that it is possible to grow

to love someone you didn't before

that things change for the better

and i will change for the better

that the world doesn't end when i fuck up

and a fucked up world doesn't end me

and there's more of all that to come

in which i'll figure out more as i go along

yes turning twenty this way

is the way it's meant to be

every year i tell myself to stay away

but i always cave

you are so rock and roll

you know it's impossible

don't pull me over baby

i'll make my way there

meet you in dead weather

we'll crash through the waves.

i like when the house is quiet

and the furniture breathes.

it helps

expel

the nervous energy in me.